one day at a time

i was terrified to go to Mass yesterday, 'cause Finn had fallen asleep early and i knew if he woke up during Mass he would scream . . . i went anyway. the priest's homily was on the mustard seed and the yeast, which was the Gospel. he was talking about how the Kingdom of God requires us to grow, which requires suffering. I looked at my sweet sleeping Finn, and remembered that Christ said that HIs Kingdom is found in children such as these . . . so taking it one day, sometimes one moment at a time, trying to keep in mind that all of these frustrations are suffering in order to grow for the Kingdom, in me and in Finn, and for the whole Church.