24 February 2009

a bump & a beat

clothes have been tight for a little while now; sunday i put on loungy clothes and then noticed:  i have a bump!  still just a little one, but noticeable (if i'm wearing the right sort of clothes).  and i began to hope that there really is a wee one.
today, though, we heard the heartbeat (and lots of kicks) and that is something incomparable.  and it is such a sense of desolation to think of all the little hearts no longer beating.  i cannot help think of them.  and be so thankful for our child, and my husband, and God is so good.
must finish thesis by 6 . . .

1 comment:

Sylvia said...

Thank you for the comment on my blog post and congratulations on the wee one within! I agree that love is a decision that you make. However, even what you said about choosing to love a man who was "not what you 'wanted'" points to the fact I was trying to illustrate: you can only love because you are first loved by Another. Though you choose to love, in a mysterious way, you are also given the gift of love. God bless.